LoveLikeLions

I truly must say that God is good. I think about every single  wonder that he has produced in my life. All of the blessings, big and small that have occurred, more than i can count. I am truly undeserving. I’m like “geez Lord, are you sure I’m worth all this? You are a crazy guy Lord. You are Truly to good!!”. This all has taken so long to process. I believe the sad part is once it all settles, once i become comfortable, i forget. I forget about how good he is, sure i remember in the morning because i pray, and i remember at night because i thank him and i pray once more, but it doesn’t pop like it did. It hurts to say that at times i feel like he becomes that gift on Christmas. Sure we are so excited to unveil its splendor, but it becomes mundane, it loses its luster, and we just place it somewhere until we find it again sometime later and were like “woah, where have you been??”. I don’t appreciate you Lord like i did when you gave me something, when i noticed you had changed me. Im sorry Lord, I don’t want that, i constantly want to be on the edge of my seet for you. Running selflessly for the Lord, with out any doubts. I will always be Truly undeserving, Lord make me the man you want me to be. Forgive me of all my past transgressions.

Today marks the third day in my epic fast. Seriously have never felt so empowered by Christ. The word fills my Spirit daily. The bread is constantly giving me these awesome revelations. I submit to you God. Also God has blessed me with an amazing mother, who is also my best friend. I called her up today to inform her on my plans that where brewing in my noggin about me getting out of the armed forces this summer. My plans for school and work, but we quickly flew off topic when we started talking about how INCREDIBLE Jesus love for us is. For God that gives us all and yet we give back so little, or at least we try but we will never begin to come close to all that amazing Love. I sat and imagined Jesus constantly thinking about me, thinking about us! Just laying there just thinking of when we finally meet. The thought makes me go crazy. We are always on his mind, yet we forget about him. Lord i am not worthy. Seriously what good are we if we cannot be beacons of light for his Kingdom. Just like he guides us daily we must guide those lost back to him, and i want to live for that. Building people up into iron fortresses of God’s Love. I want to be a loveless worshiper like King David. I want to be like Jesus. I have a million questions and every time i find the answer, my does my heart blossom. Light and love sputter out from within me. Holy Spirit covers me complete. I have been missing out for so long, and it is just the beginning!!

Thirsty Hearts, my God your love quenches it perfectly.

I plunder into sin, and down under do i slip.

I fall face first, and nothing can i grip.

No glory in the fall, nor the slightest truth at all.

I’ve deceived myself into thinking i was ever once tall.

A story i once told, of bravery and being bold.

My dam was breaking down, All this guilt i couldn’t hold.

I’ll climb as much as a can, and I’ll remember all that i am.

For my God he forgives all, after all I’m just a man.

A man who is prideful, a man who is selfish.

I take pleasure in sinning, Its a thought i could relish.

I’ll give it all up and I’ll give you my all.

Break me my Lord. Save me from this fall.

It has been quite some time since I’ve been able to approach this with any kind of clear head. A few weeks of seeking the lord and its been amazing. I had all this baggage built upon my back, i was strung with guilt. Slowly i came to the conclusion that i am only human. (It seems like an easy concept to grasp but surely it has been a battle of sorts.) We all make mistakes and at the end of the day Jesus has his arms open waiting with forgiveness. It’s no secret, it’s constant! God has been abundant in love. I don’t think i ever want to stop seeking him. When i do, I hope he breaks me down and strips me to bare bone and all. Ahh!! He is so GOOD.

In a few days (April 4th) I’ll be embarking on a spiritual adventure. A voyage for a greater and more intimate relationship with Christ. I’m quite ecstatic and it’s taken me some time to digest the idea, just because I don’t think i have ever done anything like this. I know my God is totally worth it all. So this adventure is basically a stripping of all things that keep me distracted and Ive grown so fond of. A 21 day fast of food, Facebook, Movies, videogames etc. This task seems to be a very tedious one, but I’m trusting in him and giving him my all.

I will attempt to give updates on here as often as i can. I hope you guys can help me, as seeds need water to grow, so do brothers and sisters need encouragement to grow healthy. So text me!

Thank you and Love you. Continue to press into him.