I truly must say that God is good. I think about every single wonder that he has produced in my life. All of the blessings, big and small that have occurred, more than i can count. I am truly undeserving. I’m like “geez Lord, are you sure I’m worth all this? You are a crazy guy Lord. You are Truly to good!!”. This all has taken so long to process. I believe the sad part is once it all settles, once i become comfortable, i forget. I forget about how good he is, sure i remember in the morning because i pray, and i remember at night because i thank him and i pray once more, but it doesn’t pop like it did. It hurts to say that at times i feel like he becomes that gift on Christmas. Sure we are so excited to unveil its splendor, but it becomes mundane, it loses its luster, and we just place it somewhere until we find it again sometime later and were like “woah, where have you been??”. I don’t appreciate you Lord like i did when you gave me something, when i noticed you had changed me. Im sorry Lord, I don’t want that, i constantly want to be on the edge of my seet for you. Running selflessly for the Lord, with out any doubts. I will always be Truly undeserving, Lord make me the man you want me to be. Forgive me of all my past transgressions.